OK FREAK OUT!! I am really starting to bite my nails on this one. I have a problem-I’m in the beginning phase of falling. This is a problem because I tend to do this too easily. I am a little nervous about this- I don’t want to hurt-I don’t want to feel pain and I’m afraid if I start falling I won’t be able to soften the landing. The even bigger problem is the fact that I don’t know if I would land where I want to. If I knew arms would be there to catch me I wouldn’t be so afraid, the landing would be gentle and welcome. I know this could be good, I know this could be right but it’s the landing I’m worried about. We’ve had this conversation, we’ve talked about this road, but I don’t know if we are walking down the same trail. I want to go for a walk, I want to walk down that path, I want to do that, hand in hand, with him. I need to know if that will happen-ever. I can handle a yield sign here and there, but if ‘dead end’ appears on the side of the road, I need to turn around, go back, start over, try again on a different road. The thing is though- I can’t read the road signs-they’re blurry, fuzzy, I can’t make out what they say.
I’m starting to fall and I’m not sure the landing will be very soft. I guess we will see…..
***It’s not about how hard you fall-it’s about who’s there to help you get back up***
